Life used to be chaotic and overwhelming...
For years I was consumed by crazy highs and lows, suicidal ideation that never went away, unreasonable rage and paralyzing flashbacks, as well as panic attacks. To make things worse, I had no sense of self and always felt empty. Even when I did find something that made me bubble up inside, that feeling always faded within days, never to return.
Medication only did so much and at the time, I was rarely able to make it to my doctor's appointments, let alone try therapy. I was constantly stressed out, overwhelmed and always beating myself up. I tried making lifestyle changes to better support my mind, body and soul, but couldn't do anything without breaking down.
It got to the point where I would spend hours crying because I was just so miserable. The pain I felt everyday, both emotionally and physically, left me in a constant state of chaos. I even started using those closest to me as emotional punching bags.
One day, I was offered to try some emotional support oils from a friend who was all about natural wellness. I didn't want to be rude, so I accepted the offer, but chuckled at the idea. Natural wellness was not my thing. I actually forgot about what she brought me until one day, I lost all control of my emotions and completely freaked out on my mom.
In a desperate attempt to calm down, I tried the products I was given earlier and to my surprise, they helped! I could feel the tension and rage leaving my body. My breathing slowed down. I could think reasonably again. I was even able to stay calm enough to call and book a bed at the Crisis Stabilization Unit (something I had originally turned down before).
I used the new tools I had been introduced to the entire time I was there, noticing that when I was consistent with them, I actually became less reactive. Doing so even helped me open up during therapy and stay calm enough to learn some new coping mechanisms (turns out that essential oils pair beautifully with things like meditation, breathwork and grounding techniques).
To this day, I’m still using everything I learned during that period of my life to help support my mind, body and soul. I still have bad days, and I MOST DEFINITELY relapsed in 2020 (lol), but I'm now facing my emotions without fear and showing myself the love I deserve, regardless of where I'm at in life. I'm shifting my mindset, discovering who I am again and focusing on the journey rather than the destination.
Now that I feel confident about myself and optimistic about my future, I'm doing everything I can to help others feel that exact same way, by sharing the knowledge and resources I've worked so hard to get myself!
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